Feeling so isolated from the world. Everyday the same routine happens, wakes up putting makeup and all, goes to school for maybe 2 max 3hrs, straight back home after class. Frolics at home for a while before cooking dinner for myself and then back to books. It's like I've got no life at all. Can't find anyone as boring as I am.
It'd be good if someone could maybe just jio me out for coffee or something. I'm bored as hell all by myself in this empty apartment. Yes, maybe I need to socialize more. I can't help but feel so self-conscious all the time, it's as though I'm being judged 24/7. Not smart enough, not pretty enough, not thin enough. Have been binge eating for 2 weeks or maybe 3 already. This mid-sem stress is getting to me and I hate myself for starting out so late at revision. Need to hit the gym next week after this pharmacology mid-sem.
Side track...urgh I think my stupid eczema is back with all this stress. corners of my mouth and finger feel so dry and itchy. And my face, pimples and dry skin popping up. So disgusted by everything.
Just wanna text / ring someone up but it's like we already lost contact and no one knows what to say. And I hate being the one always having to initiate.
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